This year has just been one disappointment after the other, yet I’ve been able to move forward, and try my best to persevere. And once again, another disappointment has come my way and a person (me) can only be so optimistic. Keeping a positive mindset is way too difficult now that I’m stuck in a rut. I’ve always been alright on my own but I’m not sure that I can make it this coming year. The only two people I love are going far away to build their success, and I’m still stuck in the one place I was never able to fit in. It’s extremely depressing, and for the first time I’m actually afraid of what life is going to throw at me, mainly because it’s not going to be exciting, or any kind of good for that matter. I’ve never been content with settling on something average or mediocre, and I’m basically forced to do that now, despite all my efforts this year, I’ve worked so hard for nothing. It fucking sucks.